Today, I received news that I knew would eventually come, yet it still shook me in a way I wasn’t prepared for. At first, I tried to brush it off, maybe out of denial, maybe because my heart wasn’t ready to face it. But as the day went on, sadness settled in, and now I feel it even in my body… a heaviness in my stomach that won’t quite go away.
I’ve been praying quietly, asking God to carry us through whatever is coming. Lord, whatever Your plans are for her, let them be. I’m trying to hold on to the understanding that the life we’ve shared with her has always been a gift; one given through Your grace.
I’m sad, but I’m also deeply grateful. She has been such a big part of my childhood and my life. She protected us, cared for us, gave what she could, and showed us love in ways I’ll never forget. The memories we have with her are precious, and I thank You for every moment.
She has been getting sick more often lately, and I don’t want to see her in pain. If this is a season of goodbye, please give us the strength to accept it. Help us focus on the blessings of her life rather than drowning in sorrow. Let gratitude sit beside the grief.
More than anything, I pray I’ll be able to see her and hold her again, before whatever may come. I just want her to feel loved, the same way she has always made us feel. For now, I hold on to love, to memory, and to faith.