It’s been a long time since I’ve been active on this page. And now I am finally back on track.
I have lots of things to share and lessons that I’ve learned. I don’t know how it can help you or it will be really helpful for you.
At some point in my life, I’ve lost and defeated. I came to the point where I don’t want to go on with my life. I feel helpless, depresses, hopeless and lifeless. I have to pretend that I a strong and really okay. But nobody knows how much I am struggling to keep myself alive. The feeling that I am physically living but inside I’m dead.
Yes, I have experienced those times, those times that you can’t do anything but to just cry. I’ve shed liters of tears but still that doesn’t help to make me feel really okay. I’ve lost my purpose to live. I don’t have the urge to work, to talk to my friends, to go to school, to eat or to move. And the worst feeling is you know you have to be strong for the people around you, for your family but you can’t do anything about it. You can just on pretending. Pretending to be okay but you’re really NOT.
Then one day, in the middle of lonely night while I cried I just happened to talk to him. I cannot explain the calmness and peacefulness that I’ve felt. For the first time after so long, I knew he’s there listening and caring for me. I talked to him. I cried for his help to save me from that situation. And I felt sorry for him as It took me so long to talk to him again. I asked him to guide me and redirect my life. I asked him to show me the real purpose of why I am struggling to live. I’m glad I talked to him. I’m glad he lead me to right path again. And I’m so blessed that he accepted me again.
For you, who are struggling right now. You’ve got to trust him. And I promise you he won’t let you down. As what the saying goes” Cast your burden upon him for he cares for you”. He will definitely lift the heavy burden in your life. Maybe not by the way you wanted but on his own great ways. You just need to TRUST and BELIEVE in HIM. Yes I’ve lost my way but he provide me strength and light to find the right track again.
