A found this beautiful word which connotes “the love that remains”. This was YOU. Tomorrow is the day that supposedly I am looking forward the MOST but it became just an ordinary DAY. You know what, I am still everyday wearing the Sunflower bracelet gift that you gifted me last Christmas, to remind myself that once I was loved, that once I was happy and that even we did not end up together – I have precious memories to look…
As I was watching the sunset yesterday, a thought suddenly came into my mind – I often used to say to you that I am a Sunflower and you are my SUN. Maybe my Sun needs to set down so I can experience the Moon. And I thought to myself- that you aren’t bad and so the memories that we shared. Maybe you have another purpose as a Sun not just to shine for this Sunflower. I am starting and…
It’s been more than a week now since my heart was shattered, truly loving someone with all you have is a great blessing and a curse. I am often wondering, do I really deserved this pain and disappointments? Did I do something bad in my past life or current life, that’s why the universe is shattering and punishing me. It is not easy to accept things as is. I am always questioning myself, why? I’ve got thousands of whys. I…
“Life will always give you drizzle of rain, it is just how you are going to enjoy and perceive it. Welcome to my personal blog/diary. This page helps me to express how I am feeling, all the heartbreaks, silent battles and storms that is passing my life. I hope whatever I wrote in here can sometimes help you, the one reading this. Maybe you willl be able to resonate and relate to what I am going through. Join me in…
I am here writing this to you. I am not sure if you will be able to read it or not. But still, I would like to let you know these things for the last time. I am still hurting, I don’t know what else should I do now. I am like a shattered glass, a puzzle with a missing piece. I don’t know how I am going to carry on with my life. I know healing will take time…
Life is really tough and unpredictable. Another fall back. Another wall that I wasn’t able to climb or break. Should I just accept that in this Journey, I am ALONE, that it is my destiny. Maybe I should get used to it, that in the Middle of nowhere, everyone else is going to left and abandon me. Should I just shut myself up from the world, so I will not feel the PAIN anymore. Should I just accept that no…
Here I am again, after a long hiatus. These past few months has never been easy for me; even to my family. We lost our loved ones and it broke my heart that since I am away from home, I cannot really help to comfort my family. I know everyone of us is struggling but still we are trying to stand on our feet for our very own reasons or maybe because we do not have another option but to…
“Good things comes to those who wait” Serendipity- luck that takes the form of finding valuable or pleasant things that are not looked for. Your birthday is coming up but I wasn’t able to think a meaningful gift that I can give you, so hopefully you will like this since you told me that you like my writings and hoping that someday I will also write something about you. I actually do not know how I am going to start…
“The moment before the sunrise.” As the year ended, I took this time to reflect and sort out my realisations of 2020. The year that taught us lots of things. I started the year full of mixed emotions; excitement, anxiousness, fear, joy and hope. As I tried to looked back on everything that happened to me, I am somehow proud of myself but also feel regretful, as I wish I did better. My journey going here in Malta is really…