Here I am again, after a long hiatus. These past few months has never been easy for me; even to my family. We lost our loved ones and it broke my heart that since I am away from home, I cannot really help to comfort my family. I know everyone of us is struggling but still we are trying to stand on our feet for our very own reasons or maybe because we do not have another option but to fight for life.
Right now, I’ve been on a heavy and exhausting journey, that any moment I feel like giving up. I am even questioning my purpose in life. I am desperately praying everyday to GOD to allow me to see why I am experiencing this. GOD never leaves me. He continously putting a special person in my life who is willing to support me, encourage me, be understanding of me. He is like a pillar that I can lean on.
Life is tough and full of obstacle but still if we will learn to count our blessings and be grateful for every liitle things that we have than to focus on what we do not have, we will see the GREATNESS and the GENEROSITY that GOD is sending to our life. Maybe these past days, I put my focus on the wrong direction reasons why I am feeling empty and lost. If I will put GOD as my navigator and compass, he will lead me to a calmer and bluer sea. Life is too short to dwell on the people who hurt you. If you have the ability to FORGIVE, learn to forgive as at the end, you will be the one to attain the PEACE and HARMONIOUS life you wanted. (Sorry as it is mixed up-my message to you my reader and a message to myself as well). Learn to let go of the past, the pain and traumas that you experienced. I know it is a long process but if you set your heart and mind into it, you will achieve it.
**special message to someone- KO**
- I really don’t know what happened to the two of you, but I am hoping and praying for your HEALING. Life is short. And I hope that you will stop all those silly things that you are doing right now. You deserve peace, you deserve to be happy with your own destined person. I will continuously pray for you. I am sorry, I got mad at you for doing those things to me; at some point, I can understand you but I am just hoping that you will realize that what you did was wrong.
To MABY,
Thank you for being there despite of everything that happened. Thank you for not leaving me during those hard times. Thank you for understanding me. Thank you for being my shock absorber. Thank you for encouraging me, for giving me the motivation and strenght to continue. I know I am not a perfect MABY, but I will try my best to be a good and faithful one to you. Thank you. Happy 11th. I love you
